Sunday, 24 August 2014

Draw a map, find a path. Take a breathe, and run.

 Dress ~ H&M, Top ~ H&M, Jewellery ~ Primark/Rock & Rags, Bag ~ Primark, Shoes ~ Blondie & Blondie 

As i love to be negative i'm going to say out right that i really dislike these photos, which as you can probably tell were taken when i visited Venice back in May, but i do like the dress and i do like the pretty background. It was just unfortunate that i'd spent the past 4 hours on a boiling hot coach and was immensely hungover from the ridiculously cheap wine in Italy. This dress isn't something i would usually go for but it was only £7.99 so incapable of resisting a bargain i picked it up anyway and i've actually had a lot of use out of it. It's perfect for holidays as it takes up barely any room and doesn't crease which is great if you're the kind of person who balls everything up and rams it in a case...which also comes in handy if like me you have more of a floordrobe than a wardrobe.

Having a few months worth of photos and blogging to catch up on might actually work out pretty well as since i said i would start posting again i haven't been feeling too great. If you follow me on instagram you'll have seen that i've still managed to go out for cocktails (surprise surprise) but apart from that it's just been doctors appointments and work. Monday tomorrow though and hopefully the start of a better week.

Sunday, 17 August 2014

'Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer than you.' - Dr Suess

Over the last two months i've sat down to tap out a blog post time and time again only to find myself staring blankly at the screen for a while before giving up. Blogging shouldn't be this hard, and when i started my blog it didn't feel this hard. I didn't used to think about what i wrote, now i question every sentence. Somehow blogging has become a constant analysis of whether anything i post is good enough, if i've revealed too much, if i come across as boring or pretentious....the list is endless and all revolves around appearing a certain way.

When it seems like everyone has a professional design, fancy camera and model looks, it's impossible really not to feel inferior and i'm assuming that nearly every blogger out there can relate to that in someway. For me these feelings are intensified even further by my anxiety and depression, i'm incredibly insecure, negative and self-critical in real life and this continues into the online world. Sometimes i can mask it well but when i'm feeling particuarly low it's difficult to write anything at all, not only am i a lot more harsh on myself but then there's also the pressure of not wanting to break the mask that i've built up. At that stage it becomes easier to neglect my blog completely, even though i don't necessarily want to, than to attempt to keep up the bravado.

'Wearing a mask wears you out. Faking it is fatiguing. The most exhausting activity is pretending to be what you know you aren't'

Despite all this and as much as i have been contemplating putting my blog to rest for good, i can't quite do it. There's still that niggling voice in my head reminding me how much i love being part of the blogger community and how hugely cathartic and enjoyable writing has been for me in the past and i want that again. So while i know i can't stop myself caring what other people think i figure that if i can at least be a bit more open about the negative parts of my life and try to release some of the pressure of needing to appear a certain way then maybe i won't feel the need to back away when things aren't great. From here on i'm posting what i want with or without explanation, whether it's an outfit post, drunken photos or a rant about mental health and the NHS. I'm reclaiming my blog.

Sunday, 25 May 2014

A weekend in Venice.

oh my i know i say it everytime but i really didn't realize how long its been since i last posted. The past few weeks have been busy busy with the usual working, drinking and general living but also a long weekend in Venice, from which i've finally sorted through the 500 photos i took, so hopefully this post isn't too much of an overload.

I have to admit i always imagined that when i visited Venice it would involve romantic gondola rides and candlelit dinners (feel free to gag) but with a total lack of a beau of any sort i had to settle for seeing the city with my brother and mum. Romance or not it didn't matter anyway as i still had an amazing time enjoying the sun, crossing what felt like hundreds of bridges and drinking too much red wine and coffee. I still can't quite get it into my head that people actually live in Venice, it just looks and feels so different from anywhere else i've been.

Looking at these now it feels like i wasn't even there, it only took one day back at work to make the canals seem like a dream. To be honest as much as i really did love seeing Venice the best part was having some time to relax in which i wasn't ridiculously tired or hungover, i even found the time to finish two books which i haven't done in a long long time. Now of course its back to real life and i'm hankering after another holiday more than ever!

Sunday, 20 April 2014

What i wore: peachy keen.

Skirt ~ New Look (kids), shirt ~ Peacocks, jacket ~ Topshop, boots ~ Primark, bag ~ Ollie & Nic, 
watch ~ Casio, rings ~ Primark 

Despite moving back to Cardiff over seven months ago i still at times forget that i don't actually live in London anymore. It's even worse when i go up for the day with Jordan and after finishing in Oxford street it feels like we should be hopping on the tube back to our flat in Stratford rather than the megabus. Until i move back though day trips are better than nothing and this time we actually remembered to take a few outfit photos.
Leaving the house at a ridiculous hour to get the coach does sometimes mean you make silly outfit choices, aka suspender tights. I love suspender tights but i've never felt more like a hooker in my life and ended up spending half the day attempting to minimise the amount of thigh on show. Mistake number two would have to be taking my new bag, as pretty and summery as it is i'm not used to rucksacks hence a sore shoulder and constant fighting with the buckle whenever i needed to get inside.
Apart from those two hiccups i did actually like this outfit (which is rare) and i also had a lovely day despite not buying anything at all (also rare) and being a little sad about having to come home again....and even sadder about having to be up early for work the next day. In other news i hope everyone is having a nice Easter, even if you have just spent it in bed blogging and watching movies...or was that just me?!

Tuesday, 15 April 2014

Recipe: Home-made Granola Bars

I've mentioned briefly in the past that i enjoy baking and as i've been considering doing some non-fashiony type posts lately  i thought it was about time i share one of my favourite recipes.
I love granola bars but shop brought types are never nutty enough, thats the great thing about can cram in as much as many extra ingredients as you want and experiment with anything you have in the cupboard.

100g butter
100g muscavado sugar
200g oats
3tbsp golden syrup
300g seeds/nuts/fruit (i used raisins, mixed nuts, pumpkin seeds and sunflower seeds)

Again the beauty of this recipe is that you can change it up so easily, raisins can be exchanged for berries or dates, seeds for chocolate chips, just the one type of nuts...whatever you fancy.

This really couldn't be any easier. First things first heat the oven to 140°C/gas mark 3 and line an 8 x 8 inch square tin with greaseproof paper.
Next warm the sugar, syrup and butter in a saucepan over a low heat.

When melted stir in the oats, nuts, seeds and fruit then pour into the prepared tin, pushing the mixture down lightly with a wooden spoon before baking for 30 minutes.

After 30 minutes pull the granola out the oven and leave to cool completely in the tin before cutting into slices. I made 8 large bars but bite size pieces work well too..and that's it!!

Let me know if you give these a try and how they turn out...also lemme know if you enjoyed the slightly different post, if so i have plenty more recipes ready to share. For now though lots of love,

Tuesday, 8 April 2014

desperate desires and unadmirable plans

Skirt ~ New Look kids, top ~ Primark, belt ~ Urban Outfitters, Jacket ~ New Look, Shoes ~ Blonde & Blonde, bag ~ petticoat lane market, jewellery ~ Primark

Hello lovely ladies, long time no blogging sorry. Life the last few weeks has been both busy and complicated as life often is but one thing that i'm very happy about at the moment is the prospect of summer. These photos are from mothers day last Sunday and it was lovely to be able to walk around the park with Jordan without shivering or running for shelter from the rain. I had dressed for a family lunch quite hastily in the morning and wasn't overly happy with what i was wearing at the time but looking back it'd not actually so bad....the only outfit regret i have is not breaking in these shoes first as i ended up going out the evening and waking up with huge blisters on both feet. I guess sometimes we really do have to suffer for fashion!

Thursday, 20 March 2014

Pokeball Nails: I choose you!

Hi loves, slightly different post today but i couldn't resist sharing this nail art because whether or not you watch the show and play the games who doesn't love Pokemon?! Since i started waitressing every one of my nails has broken down to a stub and the one good thing about stubby nails is that they are pretty much destined to be pokeballs....

Any nail art takes a little patience but this isn't difficult at all. First you just have to paint the entire nail white, wait to dry, paint over the top half in red, wait to dry, draw a line in black across the middle with a black dot on top, wait to dry, draw a smaller white dot in the centre, wait to dry, coat in clear varnish and voilĂ  pokeballs!
I used Barry M bright red (262), Models own nail art pen in black, L.A colors energy source, a cheapy white nail art pen from Primark and to finish it all off Barry M 3-in-1 clear. (Do y'all like my pikhachu by the way?)

 Pretty simple and of all the nail art i've tried this has definitely got the bet response, so much so that i started to get annoyed at hearing 'oh my god are those pokeballs?!' but don't let that put you off! Next up on my list of nails to attempt are Pac man and adventure time....i'll be sure to share if they turn out well :)